I Want a Story Worth Telling

There’s too many bad things in the world, to not live your life the way you want too.

Whatever is going to happen, will happen. And then you just deal with it. Don’t waste time regreting life.

I get inspired by almost every little thing. If i go to a movie that i love (which is almost every single one. Honestly, every movie producer would want me as their critique. It’s almost impossible for me to not enjoy a movie) I will get inspired easily. Maybe ill be inspired to go and live where the movie was shot, where the setting is. Maybe i will be inspired by the characters to have a particular job, to have a particular point of view, to adapt a particular trait. For example…in the movie It’s Complicated, the main character Jane inspires me to be an all around happier person. Her life is hard and complicated, yet she seems to be unbelievably happy. It’s like no matter what happpens, nothing will damper my life for good. And to own an amazing bakery like she did. Or in the movie, Letters to Juliette, i am completely inspired and now determined to live in Italy one day. PS. I Love You, He’s Just Not That Into You, Valentines Day, Women, Because I Said So ….it’s a never ending list. Some people would find this irritating. One minute i want to be here, doing thise…and by the next day after watching an amazing movie, i will want to be somewhere else doing something else. But i don’t find it irritating in the least. I love that about myself.

It could even be people. I am a very good listener and i tend to let people have a huge impact on me. Every person i know has something about them that i adore, that i love, that im envious of, that i want myself….that inspires me in general. Again, i love that about myself. Because it automatically makes me an outgoing, friendly person. Im eager to meet new people. It’s what i do, it’s what i love. I have lived all over the world already and i realize more and more as i get older, that thats what i love most. I cannot stay in one place for a long time because i want to go somewhere else and learn about abother culture, meet a completely differant crowd, learn to enjoy knew things. I feel like ..years from now when im 90 (lets hope i make it that far) i will look back and feel appeased about my life IF i live it positively, intensively, spontaneously, if i look for adventure, if i take every oppertunity, if i live on the edge. One of my biggest fears is hitting that age and feeling like i wasted a lifetime, that i did nothing with it. You have to take risks. You have to EXPERIENCE everything you possibly can.

So yes..i get inspired by EVERYTHING

What i want is to know myself. Really know myself. I think everyone at my age is still too inexperienced and unknowledgeable to really know who they are and what they love. You could come out of highschool with a 98% average and have travelled to a few places in the past with your family….and still not know who you are. It takes time. It takes patience. It’s a journey. Its what life is all about. Finding out who you are. I have only been alive for 18 years. So i don’t know very much. But at the same time….i have ALREADY been alive for 18 years. Thats alot when it comes down to how valuable everyday of your life is. I might still have yet to meet the Most amazing best friend i’ll ever know. I might still have yet to meet the love of my life. I DO have yet to find out what it is i want to do career wise with my life. I DO have yet to know where i want to live, to settle. I DO have yet to know what my favourite hobby is. I DO have yet to know what really makes me happy. I DO have yet to know who I AM.   

As of May 23th at 2:47 AM, i have chosen to take the year off and maybe even the one after that and the one after that etc. I am going to work in differant places in the world and live there. Basically, i will work from place to place. What makes me the happiest is seeing new places and new faces. I want to travel and meet people. I feel like a fulfilled life is one that is full of new experiences and new people who will have an impact on you. So there it is..

No chef school…yet. These are the years to live. Before i settle down with a career.

Goodness i am going to miss Drama 30. It was my favourite class this semester. In my opinion,  it was the perfect last class of our elementary, junior high, and highschool years. Met lots of great people that i will never forget! Tonight is the last night for the shows. I’m very sad about this. And Drama classes will only go for another 9ish days. Ughhh, staying intouch is almost all thats left. Along with the rest of my classes and the people in it, i won’t see them again either ever or for a very long timme.

So thanks to Ms.Fras’s class because you made my last semester of school ever (not including secondary school) AMAZING!

I hate it when people think they can control what you do. One problem with ‘young love’ (so corny to say) is that it impacts decisions you make when your younger. Maybe i want to travel the world before i settle down in one place…or maybe i dont want to settle at all. But the other person has a say because they are a huge part of your life and what you do in it. But thats just rediculous. I’ve whittnessed experiences like the guy doing something that the girl can’t stand or doesn’t like but they just kind of push it to the side. Get some backbone! Stand up for your independance. In my opinion…your life is your own and you do what you want when you want. I hate arguments that inlove…..”well i don’t think thats a good idea” or “You have to many ideas for the future” or “Welll, can’t you meet me half way on this one”. I get it. Your in a relationship and so you do have to meet the person halfway sometimes. But when it comes to being young and adventurous(anotherf corny word) than thats exactly what you should be embracing. Independance for me….is so important. Maybe that will become a problem for me some day…as far as relationships go. But i don’t care. It’s my life, noone elsees. And i HATE it when people say…”you have every part of me including my life” or “were a couple now so whatever i do no…you have to benefit from it aswell”. ummm no. Maybe when your married. Not now. If i want to travel the world and meet new people…im going to do it!

You can consider another person in decisions you make…but don’t base your life decisions around someone else….you will gauranteed, miss out on something amazing.

You only get one life….don’t live it the way others want.

..Another favourite Artist. I loooooove him. His voice could put me to sleep in a cattle drive..

Relationships can really complicate things..

Dear: Norah Jones

I feel like i know you just because i can connect with literally every single one of your songs. Your voice is comforting to me and at the end of the day, your songs and a glass of wine is exactly what i call happiness.

So i chose to write about living in beautiful places in the world because i recently watched Letters to Juliet. First of all, oh..my…god. I am completely inlove. With the story and with the setting. I’ve decided recently that i am going to live in Italy. Out of all the places in the world, Italy is the most breathetaking, beautiful, heart-warming, colorful, and peaceful place. Oh, did i mention i have not been there before…ever. Well, this is a true fact but i don’t really care. I will go, and i will love it. Pictures, movies set there, and stories are all i need to make my dicision. So it’s settled, im living there. And i am going to be so happpppppppppy.

Okay so here it is. I have no idea what i should do about my future. I could just take it one day at a time. But i’m the type of person that likes to have a plan. Here it is so far:

NSCC for the next two years..doing the culinary arts program.

Afterwards, go to New York and do the four years their and hopefully open my own resturant and be head chef…for a while. …Oh..did i mention im not even finished grade twelve yet? Uggggh, i don’t know though. What if i don’t like it..OH AND i would be living with my Nana in ”Senior Town” So i would only want to be at the campus in Cape Breton for the first year and then do the second year in Halifax and get my own place. Well, if you didn’t know, the economy in the Maritimes is pretty depressing and geting a job there is next to impossible sooooo, living on my own isnt looking to promising…but i dont wanna stay in Cape Breton and i don’t want to come backm to Calgary.

…i know, wayyyy ahead of myself. Time to take a breather… 

Oh boy. So School right now is so hectic that i don’t know what do with myself. Between Drama, Social, and English, the workload is crazy! And ontop of that, i have Grad to worry about (did i mention i don’t have my grad dress yet?) Grad is in 1 month!!! Good god.